It's not terminal but it isn't fun...

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Out of sheer necessity to communicate, I find myself turning to the Internet to express thoughts and feelings during this very weird time in my life. I can only write so many emails of great length to friends before I bore them to tears with my tales "behind bars". But I'm aware that I'm not the only person who has gone through this, is currently going through this, or will go through it in the future.

In the long run I hope my ranting ends up helping someone, but right now my motives are purely selfish.

I just need to speak, yet I can't. So, dear followers, read on!

Monday, September 6, 2010

birthday boy bites the big one

Okay, it wasn't THAT big, but for my birthday yesterday a friend sent me an edible bouquet. You know, those arrangements of fruit and chocolate that look like flowers. Lots of chocolate dipped strawberries.  BIG ones! At first I thought "what the H*** am I going to do with this?  But when one is basically starving for calories and a jaw just unhinged, it's amazing how resourceful you can get.  I called upon the instincts of "Survivor" and pulled that arrangement apart.  I started chopping up the fruit and did you know that chocolate just falls off dipped fruit in chunks. Decadent dark chocolate melting in my mouth. Eventually I'd had my fill and then started packaging it all up in freezer containers for treats.  Between all the cut up frozen fruit I had already in their for smoothies, and now the new batch, Scurvy will never come knocking at my door!  I usually eat pounds of veggies in day, but 1 or 2 servings of fruit max.  So I'm set for the winter. And since all of this fruit is summer fruit, it will be great in the dead of winter.
I'm almost certain I gained back all the weight lost on my birthday. It was a quiet day, no big party.  I got myself a to-die-for candle at my local book store from a company called PADDYWAX. If you can find these candles GET ONE. I got one of the Enviro Candles (which is burning while I type)  These are soy based aromatherapy candles and the one I got is pure orgasm!  Only after I visited their site did I see that they are a fav. among celebrities. I wonder if I burn this every day, will I become a celebrity?
I could use the budget of a celebrity right now.
My teeth are still sensitive. The inside of my gums are shredded from all these wires.  It's like negotiating with barbed wire.  I've swallowed a lot of dental wax which I was given to stick on the sharp parts. I wonder if there is fiber in edible wax?
In 10 days I go back for a follow up. The plan is to get the arch bars off if I'm doing well. I read that they drug you for it. They better, I'm a total whimp.
I'm almost willing to be my teeth will feel like death when all this comes off.
Then the next challenge. Facing the estimate my dentist will present me with to reconstruct the busted teeth, root canal for the one that fell out. I'll think about that another. Denial is a powerful tool right now. That and more chocolate.  I feel my freezer calling my name....